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6 Things I’m Grateful For

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Every now and again, I take a moment to reflect on how far I’ve come. Now, I’m not an ancient flower, looking down the various roads I’ve travelled because a meeting with my creator is looming in the not-too-far-distance, rather, I think I (too) often become almost obsessed with all that I don’t have, steadily becoming disgruntled, afraid and anxious as I compare where I am with where I’d like to be.

As I sat preparing to write a post today, I realised that I didn’t want to write about my ex (maybe another time) or the weird Israel Houghton scandal (I use the word weird because it reminded me that Christians can be the most judgemental people on the planet). After texting Dani to tell her I wouldn’t be writing today, I thought about writing a gratitude post and lo and behold, here I am, posting!

Here are some of the things I am grateful for:

My job

My job is literally the hardest thing I’ve ever done. This is probably an exaggeration. It is emotionally draining, challenging and every single day it feels as though I’ve fallen short (a bit like my Christian walk, gahhh), but here, I am growing. It’s not easy feeling inadequate and completely out of my depth, but I feel blessed to be in an environment where I am forced to grow. As the saying goes, ‘the comfort zone is a beautiful place, but nothing ever grows there’. 

My sanity

I often take for granted how blessed I am to be in control (to some extent) of my emotional state. I do not have persistent voices telling me what to do or hallucinations that cause me to speak to people who aren’t there. When we throw around the word ‘crazy’ or ‘mad’, we undermine and belittle the excruciating existence of those who have mental health issues and are unable to conquer them. I think too often we don’t stand up for those who can’t speak for themselves because we aren’t directly affected by the issue. I’m looking forward to getting more involved with organisations who seek to break down the stigma surrounding mental health.

My best friend

As I’ve mentioned in my previous posts, I’m not the most forthcoming with how I feel (unless you’re bae and then…well…it’s a different story). Despite not having persistent voices in my head, the past few months haven’t been the easiest. I honestly didn’t realise how bad I’d been, until last week. It’s as though a dark cloud had settled and I had become so accustomed to its numbing power that became unaware of its effects. I thank God the cloud has finally passed. I have to thank God for my best friend, Rachel, who continues to carry me when I’m not strong enough to walk, who doesn’t require words to understand my pain, who is empathetic, willing and ready to love me back to life – even when she isn’t in a position to. I love you, gurl! Thank you for teaching me what it means to be a friend.

My mentors

Both have been wonderful during this transitional year, supportive, kind, ready to go to war for me when necessary! They could have easily have been the type to break my spirit but they have so readily encouraged me and uplifted me. I am truly grateful to God for their support.

My health

It seems strange to be grateful for my health when I’ve spent the past week throwing up, nursing flare ups etc but as I’m reflecting on the journey thus far, it feels appropriate to mention it. There was a time where I didn’t think I’d be able to walk again without limping, or eat without throwing up so even though the flare ups can be intense, anxiety-inducing experiences, I am grateful that I am not where I used to be. I am finding ways to handle my condition and that, in itself, is a reason to give thanks.

The cross

I know you didn’t think I’d finish a gratitude post, on Good Friday, without mentioning the greatest day in history (or maybe the second greatest day? Resurrection Sunday is around the corner, woo!!!) Today I am grateful for an indescribable love. Words fail me; I literally do not possess the words that will encapsulate what this love has done for me. It has healed me. It has challenged me. It has lifted me

Today, I celebrate this love with millions around the world who look to the cross, the work of Jesus Christ, the greatest act of love the world has ever seen as we remember where we were when we found Jesus.  Thank you Jesus for the cross!

All my love,

J x

ps: Andre 3000 is my mood all day today, I just wish my hair was as laid as his 😦

6 Things I Am Grateful For

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1) My friends

I made a tough decision last weekend – the kind of decision my future self will thank me for but my present self is weeping over quite sad about. I am so grateful for the friends that I have; they have spoken so much light and love into my situation over the past 24 hours. I have only shared the basics of the situation (literally two lines in some cases) and yet they have rushed to my aid, armed with hope and healing words. I also let them know my decision so that I could be accountable to them. Making life-changing decisions in secret is cool but making sure they are executed takes a special circle of friends that will keep you grounded and remind you of where you said you wanted to be.

2) Getting accepted into a university

At the end of last year I got accepted into one of the best universities in the world *pauses and scratches head*. Yeah, I don’t really know how I managed that one either, I can only give God praise and point you in His direction if you’re also wondering how. I haven’t really told anyone because sometimes telling people good news can be awkward (or perhaps I am just awkward and this awkwardness pervades all areas of my life) so apologies if you are reading this and felt I should have told you sooner. God is so good; I’m still in disbelief!

3) My tutor

He charges so much for our sessions but I am so grateful for him! I have an exam coming up and he’s really helped my Maths skills. I am feeling a lot more confident (even though he is bankrupting me).

4) My joni jeans

For my ladies: if you are looking for a good pair of high-waisted skinny jeans, I couldn’t recommend these Topshop jeans more. They are a little pricey (I bought two pairs at once because they fit so well and my account was pained) but they literally fit like a glove. You won’t have to do that annoying pulling-up action you have to do with those horrible Primark high-waisted jeans because these should sit properly on your waist. I would also recommend getting a size smaller (if your stomach is complicit) I bought a size 10 and an 8 and the 8 fits so much better (but I can’t wear them if I plan on eating a full meal…obvs)

5) The Bible In One Year app

I love this app. It is concise, sound, challenging and it is helping me get through the whole Bible this year (if I remember to read it every day). If you’re struggling to read your Bible or don’t know where to start, I would really encourage you to download this app; it will change your life. I’m not saying this lightly. I’ve learnt so much already and it’s only day 19. Check it out!

6) My fresh outlook

This one is a little harder to write because is quite literally Day One of the new outlook. With all new and tough decisions, I don’t know how I will feel in the morning but I do know that regardless of how I feel, I’ve made the right decision. It’s always tough when things fall apart instead of falling together but during these times, it is important to trust God and trust the process. If you committed it to God right at the start then you have to believe that whatever you are left with is entirely His plan. Yesterday my Pastor said “what you end up with will be more than what you started with so why are you worried?” I’m holding onto those words this week.

I hope you have a great one,

Joy xxxx